straight talk

Sometimes it's just time to take a step in the right direction Sometimes a person just wakes up and realizes its time to change something and sometimes things are kind of thrown at you. This one was thrown at me. I am not going to get into the details of what exactly threw me into this state, but suffice to say, I realized that maybe, just maybe, I am not excluded from any illness or health issue even though I have acted like it for pretty much the last 56 years. Yes that's right, besides my boyish looks I am 56 years old. I have not been to a doctor in probably 3 years, and that includes any medical check-ups. I have done anything to stay away from doctors over that time because I am basically afraid of bad news. But now I will have to man up. Here are a list of my health complaints that I will have to present. 1. Constant headaches- yes I know that's not good but hey they go away with a BC powder. I say they are stress headaches but I also realize that I am not a doctor. Those guys go to school for a long time to tell me why I have a headache. Deep down I may know the real reason I have frequent headaches and that would be one of the main reasons I actually need to see a doctor. 2. Partial numbness in two fingers. My diagnosis is Carpal Tunnel but once again I am not a doctor. This has been going on for a few weeks now, and I am quite positive I have diagnosed correctly. Its either that or a little nerve issue between the elbow and the fingers. See how smart I am. 3.Knee pain- Yeah it is pretty constant. I went to see a friend about this a year or so and he basically just shook his head and mumbled something about imminent knee replacement. That took him off of my list of places and people to visit. I have absolutely NO time for that. Now look I could go through some more but I will spare you the personal issues. I feel like I am somewhat healthy but I could benefit from seeing a doctor. No I have not had a colonoscopy and I know I am about six years late on that. The thought of it scares the hell out of me and makes me sweat from head to toe. I had some issues about 6 or 7 years ago with chest pains and I had the stress test and another test and the recommendation was to have a heart cath. I decided to pass on that and I have been fine since then. His statement was that there was an area that he couldn't be sure of because of my size so I was not real comfortable getting something done if they weren't even sure. So now it comes to my size. Here is how I feel about it. I feel like people must see me one month and go wow he has really lost weight and then four months later they must go my god he has gained weight. I hate it but it is a hard fight to get away from it. I have been as low as 255 in the last year but I am probably 40 pounds away from that (ok I know I am 40 pounds away from that) I started KETo again 10 days ago and I feel much better and hopefully with all the stuff going on around me I will be able to stick to the plan and lose some good weight. In my eyes weight is health. Now I get to this point. I have not had a doctor in forever. The last one I had really didn't see things my way and the one before that asked me if I really wanted to make my kids orphans. I just looked at her and smiled and never ever went back . I need a doctor that understands me or at least tries to. I work three jobs and 55 hours a week and I like that, I mean I really like two of those jobs. I don't want him to tell me how bad I am but rather say hey we can do this and get you back where you want to be. Is that impossible ? I am asking my faithful readers to feel free to give me a doctors name and his good traits and why I should see him. I think it would change my thought process if I actually had someone that I liked. I want to thank the readers who see me around and encourage me to keep writing this blog. It is what motivates me to continue. I will continue to BLOG ON as long as my mind works. Today it is going 90 miles a minute.